I am absolutely in love with this picture, and not just the picture, but the man in it.
Isn't it strange how much life can change in just a couple of years? I can't believe where I'm at in life now compared to when I had just graduated high school in 2011. I had honestly no idea what I wanted out of my life back then. All I had were a few best friends, brothers, sisters and parents, and my smart head. My stubborn head.
I've been trying out new things on my own, trying to find what works best for me a lot more than most people, I like to think. It's not so much that I want to be rebellious. It's more that I just want to know for myself. I want to figure out on my own what's right and what's wrong. I guess some people think that's really crazy that I don't want to follow other people and what they've done. I believe that every person finds their own quirky, special way of doing things. I think once you find that way of life, you truly are happy. So far I've pieced together little bits and pieces of what I want out of myself and my experience while I'm living.
I know I love the gospel. I really truly believe and know in my heart that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the only correct and true church out there to be found. It's teachings are wonderful and bring the greatest sense of peace to one's life and those around them. I know that an education is an extremely crucial thing to have, especially in times like these where society seems to be crumbling. It's so good to love. To love with all your heart and remember to never have any regrets at all. I know that it's good to question things. It's good to ask why something happens, where you want to go next and what you're doing now. I also know that it's good to just let loose for a while, to relax and just let whatever comes...well, just come.
It's a hard life, this one, but it is most definitely worth it. More than worth it.
Like I said before, life is so much more different now. Friends have come and gone, while family has stayed the same. I have a love that I can't quite explain. I have a love I want to keep forever.
I wish that I were able to explain what he is to me in a way that others could understand. The very least thing I can do is explain what I think, what I feel and if someone understands it, then I guess they do, and if they don't...well I don't really have anything to prove to them anyway. I know exactly what's in my heart. I know exactly what I love and will always love.
Cory James Powell is my best friend. But while he is that person I can always go to for anything at all, he is so much more. He's what keeps me going when I have nothing else to hold on to. He helps me realize things about myself that I've never wanted to know, never wanted to admit. He makes me feel like I can do anything and be anything I want to be. He's the safe place I want to always crawl back to when I feel like I'm missing something. He closes that gap I used to feel.
I don't know how else to explain it other than that. I love him with all my heart and he really is my everything.
There are times where I feel so terrible because I said something wrong, or I hurt his feelings, but he always forgives me. Always. I can't believe that he does sometimes, but he does without hesitation. He makes me want to be better every day.
Shall I move to a different subject?
We went hiking; that's where I got the lovely picture from. Of course I edited it, because that's become my new hobby. I love Photoshop! It's kind of becoming my new best friend. I spend so much time with it and I love watching videos on their site of how to do things. I've been aiming for a darker view of things, with a contrasting light. I like what I've been able to do to a lot of my photos. I may or may not even scrapbook some of them.
(click on the link to see more pictures from our hike!)
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