Unconditional Love:
n.
Affection with no limits or conditions; complete love.
If only.
Monday, January 6, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Too Young for a Wise Head.
From January 4, 2014:
Today was a fantastic day at work, not because we got to see a lot of patients or saw too little, but because I feel like for the first time in a while I connected with someone. This is a big moment for me, because as of late I feel more than antisocial.
But, today was good.
My coworker and I talked for hours on end about life's problems and successes, what should be done or shouldn't. She is a good friend. She helped me with some people issues I was having and I felt that I could take her word on these things because she knew exactly how I felt; she experienced it. She knew what it feels like to walk into a crowded room and feel completely alone. She knew how hard it was to start a conversation with new people. She understood and empathized with my anxiousness when it came to making new friends and keeping them.
The advice that she gave me today?
"You decide how you react in situations and towards other people."
She could never be more right.
It makes absolutely no sense to waste time and energy on something that doesn't even care much for you. My best friend has been telling me that for years. Just go with the flow. What is meant to be will work out and what shouldn't will soon be in the past.
I cannot describe to you the feeling of letting something go. To have held onto something that was hurting me for so long and then just decide to forgive and forget brought such an immediate sense of relief and just plain old peace into my heart.
Am I ready to go back and make everything "right" again? Far from it. But I've taken the first step into something that will drastically change my life. And that in itself will bring me closer to who I am and will forever be.
Today was a fantastic day at work, not because we got to see a lot of patients or saw too little, but because I feel like for the first time in a while I connected with someone. This is a big moment for me, because as of late I feel more than antisocial.
But, today was good.
My coworker and I talked for hours on end about life's problems and successes, what should be done or shouldn't. She is a good friend. She helped me with some people issues I was having and I felt that I could take her word on these things because she knew exactly how I felt; she experienced it. She knew what it feels like to walk into a crowded room and feel completely alone. She knew how hard it was to start a conversation with new people. She understood and empathized with my anxiousness when it came to making new friends and keeping them.
The advice that she gave me today?
"You decide how you react in situations and towards other people."
She could never be more right.
It makes absolutely no sense to waste time and energy on something that doesn't even care much for you. My best friend has been telling me that for years. Just go with the flow. What is meant to be will work out and what shouldn't will soon be in the past.
I cannot describe to you the feeling of letting something go. To have held onto something that was hurting me for so long and then just decide to forgive and forget brought such an immediate sense of relief and just plain old peace into my heart.
Am I ready to go back and make everything "right" again? Far from it. But I've taken the first step into something that will drastically change my life. And that in itself will bring me closer to who I am and will forever be.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
2013: Merry Christmas 2014: Happy New Year
Merry Christmas (just a little late)! The family had a great Christmas; lots of presents and lots of smiles. We took the time this year to take time and serve at The Road Home. Although a somewhat cliche gesture during the holiday season, it was very enjoyable and we felt extremely blessed and honored to do it. Service will alway bring you blessings. No matter how big or small those blessings are, it will be just what you need at that moment in time.
This was the haul "under" the Christmas tree this year. I wanted to recreate what Alex and I have done for the past few Christmas holidays, even though he isn't here to celebrate with us this year. We did get to skype him, though (picture below)! It was so nice to be able to talk with him and see how happy he is on his mission. They weren't expensive gifts, but everyone got more than one gift from me.
Santa's elves weren't very pleased with Mary this year ;)
Mary's "white elephant" gift from me. She loved it!
The family just being, well, the family.
Dad and his new lifeproof case for his iphone; needless to say he was pretty happy about this gift.
Mom's gift from Jordan; a brand new purse. A larger one, too. She was pretty happy about her gifts, too. One of which consisted of a kitchen aid, complete with recipe book and all the little tools it can come with.
Now, on to NEW YEARS! We met up with the family later for the Barrio 5o Nuevo Ano Fiesta ;).
James and Jordan were more than a little excited for the new year, and honestly, so was I. New Year means somewhat of a fresh start. Last year was a tough one and there are a lot of things that I wish could have been easier, but this year will be better because I'm going to make it that way. My goals are to earn my Associates degree, move out and away, possibly out of state and work hard. This year is going to be a good one, no matter what.
The family just after the New Year mark, minus Alex of course.
Jordan hung out me for the last little bit of the party; he's such an awesome kid!
James, when I catch him off guard, has some of the most normal looks ever. (please excuse the upside down picture and Jordan being weird in the background)
Jordan tried to soak James in carbonated water; lucky for James, he moved just in time. Jordan was still under the impression that he had succeeded in this picture.
Here's to a brand New Year and creating many more memories to cherish!
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