It's sad that I haven't written one of these yet! I've been an 'official adult' for over 3 months now and I've given no updates as to what it's like...
Not that it's any different of course. I'm still stuck in that horrible preppy high school of mine where school pride seems to be the main focus of everything, although I won't be there much longer and that thought in itself makes me ecstatic. I don't feel any older than normal; I guess it's that whole having to mature earlier than everyone else my age. I don't mind it though. I'm glad I only went through a year or so of actual teenage years; if I had to go through any more I'm sure I would have driven myself, and possibly others, to insanity.
I'm getting off topic.
What's it like being an adult?
I get to graduate. I think that's the major event at the moment--the one I'm most excited for, anyways. I'm not even going to the actual graduation ceremony, though. I do have good reason; I don't want to. It's a waste of my time, of my parent's money and I'd rather not go sit through hours of names just to receive a fake paper reminding me to return my cap and gown only to later receive my true diploma that will constantly remind me of the years I suffered through in high school. No, thank you. I'm perfectly fine staying home, laying on my couch writing what I would have imagined graduation to be like.
I don't feel cheated in any way. In fact I feel relieved. I don't have to be surrounded by thousands of people. That in itself was reason enough not to go.
Kids at that strange, overly happy high school of mine think I'm crazy for not going. They're finally figuring out that I'm not as social as they thought I was. I do feel the slightest hint of guilt, but it doesn't matter anymore. They leave me alone now and it makes me happy.
What else is there to being an adult?
I guess you could say I'm at that point in life where I'm not dating anyone and I'm not looking to, while at the same time no one is looking to date me. It's that 'awkward stage' I've always heard people talk about but never understood for myself. Well, now I do and I am enjoying every second of being little single me. No one bothers me, not one poor soul. I could throw my own celebration from the joy I feel--alright, maybe not that far, but seriously, I am happy I don't have to deal with the boy drama other girls cause for themselves. I'm glad I'm not stupid. No offense to anyone who reads this and may be experiencing trouble themselves; maybe I just don't understand your situation and for that I apologize.
Hopefully I don't get married too soon though. Everyone seems to be saying I will, but I will try as hard as I can to make sure that doesn't happen. I need to make sure I can finish college and be prepared first. My goal is to wait until I'm at least 23. Everyone nowadays here is getting married when they're 20! How insane are they? I'm not even going to answer that.
I get to start college in the fall. I'm so happy I get to be with older people I can't even begin to explain. I'm not sure how well I'll get along with them, considering the fact that I don't really talk much and I'm younger than them--being a freshman--but we'll see how it goes. I will be attending Westminster. I remember wanting to go there ever since Dad took me there when he went there for nursing school forever ago. It seems almost impossible that I'm going there now, too, with almost all my tuition paid off already with scholarships and grants. And into music, of all things. I never would've thought when I was going to Dad's nursing classes with him that music is what I would be going to Westminster for. But that's what I love and it's what I'm going to be happy doing.
I still have to say, though, that I don't feel any different. As my life goes on, I just move along with it. 'Go with the flow', right?
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